The 2010 TdF ride went well as readers of this blog will know but essentially since the ride ended I've been struggling with motivation and though I have continued to train there have been periods when I have done relatively little in the way of training in any serious way.
I've been out on a couple of rides recently which have been pretty challenging and I know I'm below where I could be though I did a very hilly 115 miles solo recently without any real problem at all so I'm not exactly unfit. My problem is that I'm no longer sure whether I really want to dedicate so much time and energy to cycle training when in fact I'm not really training for anything that requires a peak of fitness of any sort.
I've sort of come to the realisation that in order to get back where I was say 14 months or so ago I would have to put a great deal of work in and even then I'd be nothing more than average and it's just recently all started to look a bit pointless.
What is strange is that I have recently started riding with a really nice bunch of guys from the Tyneside Vagabonds CC and have enjoyed their company greatly, even managed to get some chain gangs going which seem to have been well received. Even this does not seem to have motivated me to get back into what I would call proper training so as I said at the start I'm not really sure how to move forward.
Part of me actually quite fancies becoming a purely "leisure" cyclist and just going for a gentle roll around the lanes but another part of me feels that I shouldn't do that having invested so much time and money over the years in developing not just my knowledge but also the range of equipment I have, in particular my VELOtron which I saved long and hard for.
I'm even finding that I've become bored with riding around on the same old roads, I know pretty much every bend, every pothole, every hill and I've seen more or less every view from every angle within cycling distance of home so even that gets tedious, then there is the weather, which is normally poor!
So, it's all a bit difficult really, things on the home front are challenging too as my Mum is now very old and frail and the outcome there isn't going to be good, that all hangs over me like a black cloud and certainly has a negative effect on my state of mind.
In the end in this sort of situation the best thing to do is often just to do nothing and to see how things pan out so that's what I think I'll probably end up doing. I have some time off work now and I'm off to ride the Raid Alpine next week so I'll see if that lifts my spirits though even that hasn't panned out as perhaps I'd first thought it would.
Watch this space…